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2012 Review
1: What did you do in 2012 that you’d never done before?
i couldn't have become more vain and careless which in fact is good. but i've also been a total ignorant and lost my taste in literature. 2012 were supposed to be different and exciting but it was so fucking common. and it is all my fault.
2: Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i didn't. i didn't get skinny as anorectics, didn't take pictures, didn't fall in love, didn't travel as much as i wanted, didn't learn to speak german as a native. i didn't. my weakness is driving me crazy. this year all i want is to just be happy no matter what the circumstances will be and to become passionate again.
3: Did anyone close to you give birth?
no and i don't think if it's that exciting to share.
4: Did anyone close to you die?
no. and i am quite thankful. (yes, my sarcastic mode is turning on right now - god has been gracious this year).
5: What countries did you visit?
central europe mix only - germany, the netherlands, belgium, france, czech republic.
6: What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012?
courage.
7: What dates from 2012 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
june and me meeting a guy i have fallen for. june/july and the little eurotrip with a quick sight at the capital of fashion world. august and me meeting a guy i have taken a fancy for. august and me becoming an adult with a wonderful bday party. october and me meeting a guy i have totally got crazy about. december and me getting the driver licence.
8: What was your biggest achievement of the year?
another publications in fashion magazines and this fucking driver licence i wanted so badly.
9: What was your biggest failure?
losing friends because of my stupid pride. acting like a cold bitch.
10: Did you suffer illness or injury?
a funny accident in school in which i almost broke my wrist and wasn't able to sit for a couple of days. and cold hands, like always.
11: What was the best thing you bought?
no major purchases. or some versace stuff. and some designer blazers.
12: Whose behavior merited celebration?
mine. i should have been welcomed with red carpets.
13: Whose behavior made you appalled?
you don't have to behave, you have to look. and make me laugh. and tell me how pretty and smart i am.
14: Where did most of your money go?
fashion items, like always + parties with litres of alcohol, not cheap things.
15: What did you get really, really, really excited about?
my name in one of the best fashion magazines in the world, landing in paris, some meetings with special boys, finnaly legally driving.
16: What song will always remind you of 2012?
skyfall by adele, magic things happend when i heard it for the first time. and move in the right direction by gossip - i met a great guy who was singing it all the time.
17: Compared to this time last year, are you: (a) happier or sadder? (b) thinner or fatter? (c) richer or poorer?
happier. i don't know, i wish i were skinnier but i feels i'm still in the same point. poorer, definitely.
18: What do you wish you’d done more of?
walked away further and faster from those thing which were of no substances in my life. loved. and kissed. partied hard.
19: What do you wish you’d done less of?
waited for a notice. analysed and criticised. focused on myself.
20: How did you spend Christmas?
with my family, arguing with my mother.
21: Did you fall in love in 2012?
further in with myself. no, i didn't really love, i got obsessed and i still am.
22: What was your favorite TV program?
this year i have become a real cinema lover.
23: Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
i don't hate people. i just let them know i don't know they do exist.
24: What was the best book you read?
the master and margarita
25: What was your greatest musical discovery?
the pretty reckless. but to be honest, it was fave band of my crush.
26: What did you want and get?
tribute. and driver licence.
27: What did you want and not get?
this boy.
28: What was your favorite film of this year?
shooter island. okey, this year i'm martin's scorsese fan.
29: What one thing made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
standing my ground on things i wanted and needed to happen. not feeling insecure at all. meeting amazing men.
30: How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2012?
more classic and punky. i mean total balmain and prada mix.
31: What kept you sane?
the thought how more perfect can i become.
32: Which celebrity/ public figure did you fancy the most?
no one in particular. they lost all the meaning. i love people i can touch.
33: What political issue stirred you the most?
i don't really remember.
34: Who did you miss?
some guys. and a friend i lost.
35: Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012.
happiness might be very close. just earn it.
36: Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
money is the reason we exist, everybody knows it, it's a fact, kiss kiss.