12 lipca 2012

work hard


Dzisiaj jest dobra pogoda, żeby jechać do Berlina. Ale nie jadę, a muszę się zabawić. Znalazłam na tumblrze takie fajne coś. 

there are actually pretty intriguing. shoot me.
  • 1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? Yep, I don’t smoke so that would be easy
  • 2: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused? Single&confused
  • 3: What if I told you that you were pretty? I’d thank you, however, this is obvious
  • 4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”? no
  • 5: Are you interested in anyone right now? Not really
  • 6: What are you looking forward to in the next week? Some pretty stuff
  • 7: Do you want to be single? no
  • 8: Did you go out or stay in last night? stay
  • 9: How late did you stay up last night? Till 3 am
  • 10: Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot? yes
  • 11: Last three things you had to drink? Water, tea, beer
  • 12: Have you pretended to like someone? yes
  • 13: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it? yes
  • 14: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months? yes
  • 15: Is it hard for you to get over someone? yes
  • 16: Think back five months ago, were you single? Yes
  • 17: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon? chillin
  • 18: Hold hands with anyone this week? yes
  • 19: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? Huh yes I think
  • 20: What would you name your future daughter? julianne
  • 21: Do you miss anyone? yes
  • 22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night? no
  • 23: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed? no
  • 24: Are you good at hiding your feelings? Very very good
  • 25: Have you ever cried from being so mad? yes
  • 26: Who did you last see in person? My bro
  • 27: Are you listening to music right now? no
  • 28: What is something you currently want right now? finish this fucking work my dad gave to me
  • 29: What is the last thing you said out lot? i'm done of this shit
  • 30: How is your heart lately? frozen
  • 31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? no
  • 32: Are you wearing socks? no
  • 33: What do people call you? this cocky girl
  • 34: Will you talk to the person you like tonight? no
  • 35: Are there any stressful situations in your life? school
  • 36: Who did you last share a bed with? my friend
  • 37: Did you do something bad today? i'm cheating
  • 38: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you? yesterday
  • 39: Do you get stressed out easily? yes, i do
  • 40: Will you sing today? i won't
  • 41: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t? that happend
  • 42: Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone? olsi
  • 43: Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance? no
  • 44: What are you listening to right now? IamX - Lulled by numbers
  • 45: What is wrong with you right now? I should be skinnier
  • 46: What is on your wrists right now? watch and bracelets
  • 47: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wear? - last year in river island
  • 48: What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider? apple cider
  • 49: Do you make wishes at 11:11? no
  • 50: Are you a good artist? trying to
  • 51: Love really is a beautiful thing huh? yeeesss
  • 52: Do you miss the way things were six months ago? no
  • 53: Ever been on a golf cart? no
  • 54: Do you have trust issues? yes
  • 55: Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who? a friend
  • 56: Do you own something from Hot Topic? no
  • 57: Do you use chap stick? yes
  • 58: Have you ever slapped someone in the face? yes
  • 59: Do you have a little sister? no
  • 60: Have you ever been to New York? not yet
  • 61: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? yes
  • 62: Have you hugged someone within the last week? yes
  • 63: What were you doing at midnight last night? partying
  • 64: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? yes
  • 65: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? yes
  • 66: Were your last three kisses from the same person? no
  • 67: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days? yes
  • 68: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? with someone if we mean THIS sleep
  • 69: Will next Friday be a good one? yes

11 lipca 2012

xoxo

Emocjonalne krajobrazy. Nie chcę być taka sentymentalna. Miałam się zmienić, ale wszystko zostało po staremu. Aha, przyszły wakacje. We Francji było świetnie, ale moje przyjaciółeczki zalała żółć. Odcięłam się od wszystkich.  Zadaję się z nieznajomymi. Wszystko robię sama. Kupuję dużo ubrań i non stop chodzę w wysokich obcasach. Po dwóch latach znowu zaczęłam biegać, nie wiem po co, nie sprawia mi to już takiej radości. Uczę się. Czytam książki, tęskniłam za nimi. Bardzo dbam o swoją społeczność, mój wskaźnik popularności ciągle wzrasta, poziom niedostępności także. Nie mogę sobie pozwolić na bycie nikim. To by mogło ugodzić moją dumę. Myślę o wszystkich ironicznie. Nawet o sobie. 

1 lipca 2012

1 lipca

Mam chore sny. Piękne, ale chore. Powinny być zakazane. Przez nie w mojej głowie rodzą się dziwne fascynacje, a potem budzi się sumienie. 
Mogłabym się zakochać i jednocześnie dotknąć dna moralnego. Nie wiem, czy warto. Ale chyba tak. Przecież jest lato.